Yes, you read that right, I am a turtle in life right now. I piddle along doing what I can at a slow pace especially if it requires physical energy. It may take me two days but, I will eventually accomplish the task at hand. Before being diagnosed with Myasthenia Gravis I was a cheeta! I would zip through tasks and keep going, sometimes living off of a few hours of sleep. Well…long gone are those days! Yesterday I went to the grocery store, picked up some chicken plates at a local fundraiser, met someone I sold something to on the online yard sale, put up groceries, ate and took an hour long nap. Simply getting in and out of the car is taxing these days and it drives me crazy! Later on in the day I rode to one of our local stores to a sidewalk sale & to get a banana split with my Mama. Don’t judge! It was half of a banana split and it was my supper. It must be ok because this is what my mama says every time she drives me to get one. 😂😂😂 Once we got back home I went to bed at 6:30pm and slept ALL NIGHT LONG!! Crazy disease! The things I use to take for granted now require effort and planning. I can’t just live life on a whim. This disease has robbed me of so many things, I could make a list a mile long if I choose to but, I don’t want to. If I start making that list I expect one of you to call me out! I will be heading in the wrong direction. Friends should always help when they see someone spiraling down! I’m counting on you to help me in this fight!
Instead, let me tell you what I got to do yesterday while I was slowly doing my thing. I got to talk to people in my hometown that have been praying for me and wanted to know how I am doing, I got to roll down the window and wave to my nieces and nephews playing kickball in their yard (never would have noticed if I was driving), I got to sit and visit with my Aunt & Uncle that came to pick up their chicken plates (and tell my Aunt how her sister drives in a traffic circle), I got to giggle and eat a banana split with my Mama. I got busted by my husband while shopping! I got to get hugs from now adults that remember me as their school nurse. I got to spend time slowly watching, listening & loving the little things that pass us by. It was a great day yesterday.
Today was pretty much the same way; I got up and walked next door to my Mama’s house for coffee. I got dressed and went to church, talked with my church family, lead the singing and came home to lunch cooked by my husband. Then I had a nap because I was physically worn down. Hey, Sunday is a day of rest and I’m following the Lord’s command – it might be the only commandment I get right some weeks! Perfect example of imperfection right here but I am working on it!
The Bible tells us: “I can do all things through him who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13 ESV. And I can do it ALL because he has given me strength, determination & the will to keep on fighting, working, Praising Him and piddling along. I want to focus on the positive things that I wouldn’t normally get to do had Myasthenia Gravis not popped into my life. I want to be an inspiration, a fighter, a friend – sometimes life intervenes and we lose the simpler things. I’m so glad that I only have the simple little things right now to focus on. One day at a time, one task at a time, one moment at a time- it is my life now and for that I’m thankful for each simple little thing and for you!
My title came from this week at work. My boss asked me how I was doing I said “I am a turtle”. She responded back “And that OK!” She was right – I am a turtle and it’s ok with me!
Thanks for reading my blog! Have a restful Sunday! ~Melynda