“Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; Save me, and I shall be saved, For You are my praise.”Jeremiah 17:14 NKJV
As this week closed a huge milestone happened for me. I finally made it to the clinic to follow up with the doctor for my first visit after being diagnosed with MG. I had no clue what he was going to tell me. I just knew that I had questions and he was answering them. He did – patiently; then he laughed and told me to feel free to leave that notebook at the house next trip- You have to love a doctor with a sense of humor. One of my questions was “Why?” His answer was simply “we don’t know”. Such a huge question with no real answer. Why me, Lord? That one question that everyone asks and I hate to even question but in my flesh I did it. Well, I might not know the answer to that question but I know my response to the problem. Praise The Lord all the way to my healing! That is my desire. In the meantime, during this time of infliction I will learn from it, grow from it, try my best to educate others on it & I will glorify an Almighty God that heals and saves! Jeremiah stated in the verse above “Heal me, O Lord and I SHALL be healed.” It’s mine. I’m claiming it in the Almighty Name of Jesus!
The milestone I mentioned earlier, the doctor gave me the all clear to return to work. It has been important for me to return to work. I love my job, I love my co workers and I love having that feeling of usefulness. When I work I not only support my family financially but, I also support the talent God gave me of being a care giver. It drives me and has made me the person I am today. I want to care for others, it makes me happy and I feel incredible worth when I do. Yesterday, I quietly eased into work , only my boss knew I was coming just in case my body decided to not work. The response I got by simply being there was overwhelming! I was able to surprise my office mate Alice who is like a kindred spirit. She and I have so much fun working folks think we are goofing off. We laugh & sing & laugh some more. What better medicine than the healing power of laughter right? The other coworkers that saw me sitting at my desk did double takes and then came in to hug me and welcome me back. It was everything I could have dreamed and then some. I felt where I belong, in a place God hand picked for me. I even made the entire day! God is so good and faithful. He only asks that we trust Him. Have that faith & I do. I know that I will be healed in HIS time. As for now I’m praising Him for each small step in this healing process. With each day gains new challenges but bring it on – I love a good old problem solving and I know the man with the answers!
One last comment before I close, I have been humbled by the people that I have come in contact with or cared for in the past that have reached out to me. Humbled to tears of thanksgiving for each of you that care enough to let me know through your cards, calls, comments, text, Facebook likes, shares, posts, messages, prayers, food and love. I’m tearing up right now thinking about it. God calls us to “Love thy neighbor as thyself” and you truly have whether it’s been in my small town of Lincolnton or the CSRA (Central Savannah River Area for those reading that don’t live near here) thank you from the bottom of my heart!
I still can’t wait to see the outcome of this journey. I look forward to posting again!