“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”
Psalms 46:10 NKJV
I am not a biblical scholar, I am simply a sinner saved by the grace of an Almighty God. I am imperfection at its finest and I tell everyone my worst character flaw is my mouth. It can be loving and mean in one breath! Do I mean to let that happen? Absolutely not, but the sin of my flesh takes over and WHAM; there is goes. One of the hardest things I have ever had to do is ask for forgiveness from my children because of somethings I’ve said. Thank goodness they love me enough to forgive me and I’m even more thankful I have a Savior that can wipe the slate clean! Learning from those mistakes is very humbling. It’s a those times I wish I would slowdown and take it all in. I must confess that God has been after me like those yellow jackets that buzz around you at a picnic in July in Georgia about slowing down. “Simplify Melynda” – I have heard in a still small voice for months! Yep, ignore that one let’s see where it gets you! The signs have been there: I even did a bible study by Patricia Shirer called Breathe – it was about simplifying your life & I highly recommend it by the way! But let’s just say that I half way listened to the simplifying part. I can make excuses all day long but that is NOT what I feel God wants to hear. He wants action! I mean really, when you stand before the judgement seat of Christ are you going to make excuses? Excuses are empty words of fluff and stuff! Actions mean more than words! That’s where I feel Myasthenia Gravis comes into play. Do I feel like God gave me this? No way! Sin & sickness are of the devil’s business and how I choose to fight it is mine! (Cue the war music) I’m loaded for bear and bringing in the BIG GUNS! God’s got this!
I am by nature a busybody, I have to be doing something all the time. Lately I have been too exhausted and I’m not talking tired. I am talking I’ve been so exhausted that when I pull under my carport at home from work I have taken a nap in the car just to have the energy to get into the house! I had no clue what would be the culprit. Since my initial diagnosis June 22 of this year I have come to a screeching halt in my day to day lifestyle. I have not been able to go back to my nursing job so I have had plenty of time for focusing on my faith, family, home and my health. I have become quiet and still. For those of you that know how much I love to talk, pick up your jaw now. 😂😂
Myasthenia Gravis doesn’t tell you what muscle it will choose to effect on what day so each morning is a new day with new challenges. I have been doing what I can around the house but, outside these four walls; that has fallen to the least of my worries right now. I need my husband, my children, my mother, my mother in law, my brother, my sister in laws, my brother I law, my nieces, my nephews & the rest of my family to know; “I love you always and forever. I am here. I am fighting. I am going to beat this.” I need to focus…Be still, and know that the God I serve is in the miraculous business! He is a healer, life changer, promise keeper, comforter, my strength and my peace that passes ALL understanding! I know as sure as I’m typing I will be healed in HIS time. I know I’ve said it before but, I can’t wait to see where this journey takes me. It won’t be all mountaintops so I plan to sing and shout in the valleys! It is what you make it and my plan is to make it a humdinger!!
Thanks for reading! This blog has proven to be a lifesaver for me to just simply to put down my thoughts. One day I can see where I was at and rejoice in how far I have come!